Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Bitches ! it's a celebration!! Enjoy your selves..

Not doing that great these days .. I am trying to stay positive about life, but life gets in the way..
My job is ending with the company I have been working for because they lost the account at the school where I work.
As far as I know I won't be hired by the school because of my felony conviction.
I guess that's the way it goes.
Also lots of tension in my house lately because, well I'm not completely sure. I know my wife is really tired and so am I and it seems like every time I am in a job crisis she wants to start talking about how we need to split the bills as if we were room mates.
I feel pretty alone at this point, but I am working on it. I know things aren't always bad, but it seems like not one person is actually happy with me. I don't think I have taken advantage of Johanna but in some way she must think I have. Or at least that's what it feels like.

Darkness, that cold embrace.
Into her bosom I fall.
I never can see her face,
the cold consuming my all.
In a life I once lived there was joy.
A life filled with wonder and security.
the darkness has taken the dreams of the boy,
there remains a void filled with futility.
Pain makes lets me know I'm alive,
And I think that's what I want to be.
against all the sorrow I strive,
but I feel her icy fingers clawing me.
And her cold glower is drawing me.