Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Bitches ! it's a celebration!! Enjoy your selves..

Not doing that great these days .. I am trying to stay positive about life, but life gets in the way..
My job is ending with the company I have been working for because they lost the account at the school where I work.
As far as I know I won't be hired by the school because of my felony conviction.
I guess that's the way it goes.
Also lots of tension in my house lately because, well I'm not completely sure. I know my wife is really tired and so am I and it seems like every time I am in a job crisis she wants to start talking about how we need to split the bills as if we were room mates.
I feel pretty alone at this point, but I am working on it. I know things aren't always bad, but it seems like not one person is actually happy with me. I don't think I have taken advantage of Johanna but in some way she must think I have. Or at least that's what it feels like.


Darkness, that cold embrace.
Into her bosom I fall.
I never can see her face,
the cold consuming my all.
In a life I once lived there was joy.
A life filled with wonder and security.
the darkness has taken the dreams of the boy,
there remains a void filled with futility.
Pain makes lets me know I'm alive,
And I think that's what I want to be.
against all the sorrow I strive,
but I feel her icy fingers clawing me.
And her cold glower is drawing me.

15 comments:

sandwhichisthere said...

Shaun,
the dark times will pass. I know that it is hard to think in that way when you are up to your neck in alligators but it will pass. Birds will sing, laughter will grace your life, your next box of Cracker Jacks will have a diamond ring in it.
Keep on keepin on,
nils
P.S. I found an answer in the writings of Thomas Merton regarding facing the abyss. I don't know if his ideas would apply to you but I wish you better times and a life of 5's. 5's are good. There are no 10's but there are no 1's either.

sandwhichisthere said...

Shaun,
the B word is a big mistake,
nils

shaun said...

Sorry,
That was my Rick James impression..
Things are better than they were and I have a new job, I transferred with sodexo to Hilsborough Community College.
It's a job and it pays ok and maybe it will grant me another opportunity to make more money.
I hope.

Sharon Cumberland said...

I hope things are looking up for you. I liked your poem.

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I was browsing through the blogs and had to read your posts. Let me tell you that I appreciate someone who feels life is not always tough but there are times when we all feel the pressure and the feeling of being alone.
I hope the new job brings new beginnings for you.
Let me also add that WE CAN NOT BE RESPONSIBLE FOR EVERYONE ELSES FEELINGS AND MODES. It took me a very long time to figure that out and sticky to it. Nice to meet you.

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Anonymous said...

Sorry to hear about your recent misfortune. Life is like that up and down sometimes down more that others but this is simply a test like all the others and try not to let it take you over the cliff. Rise like a phoniex.

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