This is post number two for me. I am pretty tired ( I just got in from work ) but I decided to do this now anyway . So I do have really awsome news I am going to marry the love of my life & hopefully she will not end up so disappointed that she leaves me . I think this is going to be really great , lots of work but really great.our kids are probably some of the happiest I have ever met already & I think knowing that we are together for life will only make them more secure .it is still really hard some days , but this is the best life I have ever known & I can't imagine what things would be like if we were apart. we actually got our marriage liscense over a week ago but we have had no time . We don't have much money or time , so I think we are in agreement that our wedding will be a small affair with just a few friends & family . I think the most important thing is that we do this for real & let God in from the very first day . Not to say that I am a religious fanatic , but I trruly believe that God put us in each others way .I am sure He knew what would happen ( even though we would have 1 child out of wedlock & many obstacles to overcome along with much hurt to each other) I think our marriage isalready blessed by God , I know that will make some people think Iam really mislead & lost soul.
I know that God has lead me to this place ( ok maybe he drug me )
and I know that he has shown me so much favor .
As a song I used to hear on the radio said ,"I now He didn't bring me this far to leave me". So I say Rise & shine today is a new day today I have a clean slate & I am forgiven & I am loved even if I don't always feel like it .
Thank You Lord For your mercy & for you unbelievable patience with me .